since the summer have started, i want to hyperfocus on all my projects to finally finish them. currently im taking a short break from everything but i still have been drawing and making poetry if u can call it that. I NEED TO LOCK IN
i see that in all my posts here i just vent rant about my pathetic attempts of doing so, or simply being productive and doing everything in time. im no longer talking about there topics cuz im tired of them myself

also im 17 now and so im closer to my inevitable death. for my birthday i got a bag, which i should originally go to school with, but its too expensive for me to go in this rotten place, and also my horrendous and hideous looks dont fit it🥰. thanks anyways parents. also i got victorias secret pajamas and a mist and a lotion there too(slay(who tf still uses ths word(me once)), a lil pink rose bouquet but its a shame it died so quickly, also a 1000pcs puzzle with a kitty that i wanted(thanks sis) i solved it in 3 days(could be less). also there was a chocolate cake and chocolate-covered strawberries. also a surprisingly big amount of ppl wished me happy birthday and someone actually gifted me 50 stars on telegram
and i dont really have friends irl, meeting new ppl and maintaining friendships with them is overwhelming for me(not like im mentally ill or something(are you sure))(also i still want to find friends with my interests, nobody called that off)

also my moot on tiktok put my art on their jim wall and i feel proud.
ughhhh i need to do something with myself this summer anyways, cuz its the last year of school. bye ill go to sleep

wowwww i haven't posted here since february, it's time to tell the updates happening around this time! well the posts here are always kind of vague so i'll try to get into details or whatever, because i'm just bored
about my projects:
about games: i'm still kind of stuck on afterthought because i can't focus like a normal person would and now i drag it for the 4th month(i'm even scared about talking about my previous games like dorm daze, overpilled and if u loved me). i drew the most important backgrounds and now starting to draw the sprites(since i burn out from drawing the bgs only, i even abandoned my art account on tiktok for a while), so overall work is going slowly but its better than nothing.
on other hand, i did a lot of shit on my websites! i finally made the project page to summarize each project and divide them into sections like games/ webdev, etc. when i'll finish the most of my work, i'll polish this page and it will look even better.
also i created a music tree page for fun on github pages, it sure was hard but now atleast it works, but at the time i only branched metal properly, now i can't wait to do punk and its subgenres. it's on my project page now! because it's a early stages of development there are some limitations to this site like: u have to be careful when clicking too many of the buttons so it won't get bugged. i also want to fix some problems here and make a hover descriptions for the genres or something like that
i separated the poems and shorts and created a page dedicated to my shitass poems since i started to get iinto writing them since march. the design is now good to look at and read! i wrote some poems by this time and so far i like "my goddess" bcs i wanted to write about this theme a long time ago. it's still unfinished but i need to get into it later. i hope i'll get better at writing poems so i won't cringe every time i reread one. but im still kind of proud of them lol. i like writing them while listening to my favorite doom metal
i enhanced the oc pages for a bit so its less vague and visually better but whatever, now i need to actually write about the oc and their lore..

about me? well, nothing really happens to me lately or like always: my life is a lil boring and i wanna die.
well today i got a weird dream where i met erik and lukas(oc) and it was kind of cool, but i knew it wasnt real since the beginning because they are not real :(. i liked hanging out with erik but he's a bit weird.
a few days ago i joined a telegram group with ppl who like metal and a girl i now have a streak pet on tiktok with gifted me 2 months of spotify premium, she's hella cool but older than me(shes 21 and in this case isnt really a problem tbh(im not a lil kid hah))
in 3 days i listened to 5 albums and thats crazy to me lol
i got school tomorrow so i gotta sleep!

i cant sleep so i write this. decided to take a break from the game. the day earlier i did a lot of shit here
shit like adding shorts where i put my writings that are too short and unfinished, and later also 'navigation' for scrolling to the right story. i realised i may need to write more because it's all so shitty. i also changed the colors on the main writings page.
now im making a better 'about me' page.
i added a viewcounter and a 88x31 button, well now ones gonna use that but i still like it, found some really cool tool on reddit.
i also wanted to make a status.cafe account too add on the nekoweb one but the email doesnt get to me lol
feeling shitty like always and my cat doesnt let me sleep cuz shes in heat rn

updated some pages like art adding some new art now 2026 year, games adding new vn and deleting abandoned project,
i also updated mysite again. i added my links
also working on my vn with technical parts
most placeholders are here, i might need to start drawing the actual backgrounds. im scared about drawing sprites bcs they are supposed to blink and talk

It's 2026!
Turns out making a game over a winter break is not that easy and i just finished act 1 and now got to the technical part.
Why do I always overestimate my stupid ass and then fuck everything up.
Whatever, I've updated the normal new ver of this site This one.
Bruh I need to get a grip
Also i need to start preparing to my final tests that basically define my future FUCK MY CHUD LIFE

I've scooped all of the left brain cells and decided that instead of finishing these shitass games with no structure, make a short but meaningful VN on this winter break.
I've designed the characters and now writing the acts.

Adding characters to my OC page.
Lol I was missing for almost 2 months. Probably because school has started, but now it's winter break.
I draw sprites for If You Loved Me, and I also need CGIs and endings to finally publish the game.
I really do need a grip and fight procrastination because making a game for almost a year is diabolical. And I also want to make another game to test my skills and study new things.
I also need to finish the siteee.
Also New Year's eve is very soon! See ya later

I haven't posted here in a while.
I've been on my autumn holidays at my cousins and had no access to my laptop.
However I was drawing the whole stay here and had a good time!
That's why I finally created the art page to put everything i drew on the holidays.
Soon I'll add another old art and paintings, but I don't know where in the house they are right now.
Fuckass school started and I already hate it.
Also I've got a few ideas to practise CSS and HTML, and the main reason is that this webpage is definetely not mobile friendly, it pisses me off.
I want to create and host the same website as this, but it will be simplified.
Yeah I'm too lazy to adapt 98.css myself, I'll make another one in another style.

Finally added normal cover images for each game so it doesn't look that empty.

Created a page about another game prototype
also updated 1st demo page

Left my tiktok and itch pages in links, will add more
Also added stuff on my about page

Added the chat and couldn't figure out how do i change the height lol
I think i've got a splinter in my finger and got a chemical burn from hydrogen peroxide, now it hurts 10 times worse
I am going to sleep

Bruhhh i need to figure out the fonts on each not 98.css used page
I want to sleep

HUH THERES ALREADY 4 FROM AMERICA

I wonder if it'll get any views lol
I want to add sum more

Created a page for my planned visual novels
There's 4 of them rn:Dorm Daze, Overpilled, IYLM, NTY
short bcs idk when i'm making them, nothing's done

Creating all the missing pages
Also I wanted to change something on the 'desktop', like adding apps, making the start button interactive.
I'll make it later i guess

Made a simple melody in garage band three days ago
Couldn't figure out why didn't work the first time, then compressed it to wav
Now everything's noice

Still figuring out and putting everything in place

Blog page created!